i think i can feel reverberations of something further downstream
TWO POEMS By Lily Holloway
i am worried things will never be okay
because i slept all day
i woke wondering why i could hear the sea and thought maybe
the very tops of the trees were moving in the wind
just the very tops
but it was your laptop overheating
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in the night i pull a fragile train behind me
a blanket trailing in earth
not like how illegally released koi
are dragged over the rocks
because they are ornamental and inedible
on their way to be put into the meat grinder on the back of a flatbed truck
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i dream i am scooby doo from the original 60s version
in the supermarket of the afterlife where everything is free
and each drink is exactly what you needed
but didn’t know you needed
where you shoot rusted clockwork birds moving on rails around the castle walls
only to have them pop up again
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a toaster is passed over my head and i tell my sister
to make her own ekphrastic postcards
and that koi skulls are sensitive to vibrations
they feel fingertips or bootlaces falling into the river
and flee in an orange rushing that you have to see to believe
like fanta
The Thing
in the suburbs
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an unplugged freezer
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[someone’s been in]
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over the dishes
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she falls
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tries to read the cereal box
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[but it swims]
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light on the harbour
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and a sound of cicadas
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concussions without impact
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havana
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a miniaturised headquarters
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view the facade from the balcony
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cigarettes in the ashtray
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someone has poisoned the dog
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seismic wave
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through the walls
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lobbed like tennis balls
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all you can do
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is get off the X
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immaculate concussion
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[empty watch stations]
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a mysterious water pump
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& microwave
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trauma
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a focus of energy
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like burning ants
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dissolving fibres
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around nerves
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bubbling arterial blood
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a child in that alcove
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or just an old cold lingering?
Lily Holloway is a 21-year old English and Ancient History major at The University of Auckland. You can find her work in Mayhem, The Three Lamps, The Spinoff and on her website (lilyholloway.co.nz).